One of my fellow ALM students, Ian Lamont, who is about to graduate any minute, has just written a great blog post about the uphill climb of doing the thesis. Being at the ‘end of the beginning’ of my process (topic approved, still putting the proposal together), I appreciate his insights about how hard it is doing it ’solo’. It gives me a ‘reality check’ that it’s not me. Any grad. student who says he never has any doubts in the process is lying (or kidding himself)!
For instance, Ian talks about the thesis being
“mostly self-directed. Students have to conduct the initial research inquiries, choose topics, and compose thesis proposals on their own, and follow the guidance of the research advisor and thesis director in terms of conducting additional research and developing the thesis itself. “
Indeed, the fact that thesis work is mostly self-directed can’t be stressed enough and presents a particular (if not unique) problem for Extension students. Certainly, grad. students are expected to work independently but in Extension, it’s taken to an extreme because there are very few of us who go full-time, very few of us are teaching assistants, and no one (to my knowledge) has a research assistantship with an office and fellow students to confer with sharing that space (unlike several of my friends @ KSG, Brown, and Fletcher who have regular contact and feedback from fellow students). In Extension, none of us know each other, beyond small talk in a class once in a while.
So each of us who is in the thesis pipeline is working out there alone, w/little or no campus interaction (going to Widener doesn’t count, still a solo effort), no opportunities for mixing with fellow students through TA/RA work, no regular student activities to participate in or lounge to hang out in. I recognize some of the problem is lack of time on ALM students’ part (we are all busy outside of school) but there’s little outreach from the school on this count either (the ALM reception is a nice idea but if you don’t know anyone before arriving, it makes it hard to just ‘jump in’ one night per semester). The thesis writers’ group is good but not frequent enough or attended consistently to make real connections through it. It takes time to develop trust, to feel comfortable enough to discuss vulnerabilities and concerns. I can’t say that I’ve ever heard a fellow ALM admit, “I’m lost in the weeds, can you help me out?”. Who’s going to say that at Harvard and when you haven’t developed a rapport?
This ’self-direction’ is a fundamental element of the experience — something everyone must contend with so I recommend developing a strategy to deal with it sooner rather than later. Aside from one’s intellectual capabilities, if you are not able to motivate yourself (over and over again); develop confidence that you are on the right track; know how to do what’s necessary at each stage of the thesis; and, learn to live with ambiguity, that solitary status can undermine your ultimate success if you have no one who knows what you’re going through to talk it over with. It’s hard to motivate and direct oneself during the periods in the process where you feel a bit lost or overwhelmed (both normal occurrences).
I intentionally sought out a couple of more seasoned graduate students early on to give me feedback and support (none of whom are at Harvard) (BTW, KSG master’s students don’t do a research thesis so the folks I know over there aren’t going through this — they are in an applied program). My friends have been through this step and help me “think out loud” — talk through my ideas . For an extrovert in what is an introverted project that makes my rewrites and finished work much better. It’s not realistic to depend on Dr. O or even the thesis writers’ group for on-going support beyond a minimal level. Dr. O is very busy and the group doesn’t meet often enough to create that deeper connection.
Ian also mentions that the graduation rate for the ALM program (enrolled degree candidates, not in the professional programs) is 52 percent. I bet it’s lower. We all know stats can be manipulated to make a case (I don’t think Ext/Harvard wants to show a small graduation rate in any program). Regardless, that percentage isn’t the story — it’s the reasons why people don’t finish that matter. If the ALM had more resources and institutional support, I bet the grad. rate would be higher. It’s very hard for working adults, some with kids and/or other responsibilities, to get through the whole degree.
To get this far, all but thesis, and not finish — I wish the Ext. School would put more effort into helping those who have made such a commitment, both in time and money, to get that far and to this school and may just need more support in going the last mile. The thesis part is the most lonely; akin to a marathon. But we all need cheerleaders and water stations along the way!