You may (or may not) have noticed that I’ve not blogged on Thursdays lately. I should also add that I likely won’t be blogging on Thursdays until mid-December. That’s because I’m taking this management course at Harvard right now and it takes place on, you guessed it, Thursday.
It’s run by the Harvard Center for Workplace Development. Six or seven years ago I took the entry-level version of the course, Leadership Essentials. This time around, I’m taking Foundations of Leadership (at least, I think that’s the name).
I recall learning some helpful tips the first time around so I’m hoping for something similar this time. Prior to starting the course, I had to complete a lengthy survey. In addition, I had to have my co-workers, direct reports (well, only one direct report), and boss fill out the same survey about my performance.
Yesterday we got the results back, and I have to admit I was surprised by a few things. Most significantly, the results indicated that I have a strong sense of self (self confidence, self-esteem, etc…). In fact, on a scale of 0-100, I scored a 99 in my self evaluation, with various scores from my peers in the 40-70 range). Similarly, when it came to “outgoing”, I also scored a 99 in the self evaluation, and similar scores among my peers.
WTF? I’ve always thought that I had the lowest self-esteem of anybody I know (hello, therapy?). I also consider myself quite shy, particularly around strangers or in social situations (parties, meetings, speaking up in class, etc…). Where the hell did these results come from? It always fascinates me how others perceive me. But how could I be so off in my perceptions of my own self?
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